Wow.

I haven't looked at this page for almost a year, perhaps 2. Went through all my journal entries of old. The feelings.. indescribably. Some of those entries I remember writting quite clearly, and some I'm a little eh about.

Its like I have a fresh eye for it, somewhat out of body. I know I wrote this stuff, but it doesn't FEEL like me. Mmnn interesting. Kinda brings home the Need, not the want to write a journal. A record of what I've done and what I'm planning on doing. My emotions and feelings.

So how does one write an entry after a two year absence (I looked the date up). Does the atypical "Dear Diary" work. Perhaps a deluge of words to cover all concepts. Will I like the results of what I see, when I condense my life to paper. I've had a somewhat similar reaction in the past, found a friend reading a draft copy of my resume. She stood by my printer, reading what I had in the tray.

She turned to me eyebrows lifted and said "Man you can bullshit on".

Quite Offended, I replied "That's six years of my life bitch".

Well lets see. I think I'll split it into positives and negatives. In the last 2 years I have:

- Brought my own unit (Didnt make it too the $30,000 but the end result was the same). Its in town close to city central and I love it.
- Restarted my music (Guitar for the most part)
- Restarted Univerisity. Lawl dunno if this one is a positive or not, wait and see.
- Got made acting Senior at work. It's temporary but the money is most welcome.

Some of the bad sides:

- Haven't held down a relationship for longer then 3 months. Mmnnn, and there have been a coupld of great girls in there. Stupid me.
- Still pudgy. Got fit for a while then lost it again.
- Got a whole different set of emotional hangups now. Loco -5 (Dealing with people). Heh
- Went were I should not have. I truly hate myself sometimes.

I'm sure there is more as I think about it. Heh probably just want the creative thoughts to get flowing again. Anyway I should probably stop procrastinating and do my uni work. (So far behind hehe, but you gotta have a deadline to be motivated!!!)